Pieces of Me

Hope ….

hope….

hope…

is what keep us going living….Without hope, we will give up what we have and live lifelessly. With hope , we wanted to continue to survive and achieve what we are hoping. I always believe everyone must always have something to hope so that they will be the engine to make them move on. Is scary when you have no more hope or being told by someone you have no more hope or even something that make you have no more hope in your life.

So have some hope in ur heart, life , ppl around you, stuff or things around you. Keep ur life moving meaningfully and live the fullest………………….

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Do you know what you want? Is what you want now will be different in 1 year , 3 years and upcoming years? Will you insists on getting what you want? Will you be happy and contented with what you wants? What if what you want will involve sacrifices others happiness ? What if what you want is morally incorrect? Is what you want will not apply to what other wants? Are you going to feel bad for chasing after what you want ? Do you care on what other see and think about you? Questions questions ………….never endless questions pouring…………… How to justify if it is wrong to chase after something you want ? Will the ppl around understand that?

i want …………………………

Today while i was reading a magazine, come across an interesting articles. According to that article, a divorce child is like ball being kick around. This seem interesting, just how many will agreed with this  statement. This sentence sounds so cruel, being kick around ….. hahhah …..
         Will the ball eventually finds the place where it really belongs to someday? Or the ball will only be kicking around non stop in the raining or shinny days. I`m sure It does feel pain and hurt being kick around. Does the surrounded objects ever notice it? Maybe it is too frequently being kick around till it doesnt know when is the pit stop to stop and does not have the control over where it wants to go…………

          so is this the fate of the ball………………….

p/S: luckily i`m human not ball = >

I think sometimes god must be playing a joke with us. I remember there is one time when i wanted something really bad but cannot get it. After sometime, when i almost forget about it, the things you want will eventually come to your way. DOes that sounds familiar to you? Does things always have to go that way. The things you really want so  badly is like the sky which will never touch the ground. When you do not needed or wanted the things anymore, it will come to you. Hate the torturing feeling you have to go through.

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
The stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
The stars reassure tired me
They wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

Don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me, Telling me to go to sleep

Though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
Though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
Stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

Today is a holiday replacement for AGONG BIRTHDAY which falls on Saturday. So i take this opportunity to settle some of my stuff like going to bank, renew license and settle the connection error i have been having for my celcom broadband since last few days.
I cannot  I choose to went to Pulau tikus as all the centers were near each other. First i go to the public bank to activate my account which i have not touch for some time. Guess what although there are 5 counters opening and not many ppl, i have to wait for almost 1 hour. Yup the public bank at pulau tikus there. Ok nvm… next i go to renew my motorbike and car insurance/road tax . I also required to wait for half an hour as the person in charge not around. Hello,,, there should be a backup person to handle this. IF that person is not around , then all the ppl do not have to renew their insurance and roadtax. I still tell myself to calm down. While waited for that person to come back, i go to AM bank center which is just opposite to renew my car insurance.  The same thing happen, there is no much people around but there is only one customer service person and she is busy handling the transaction. Few more o  the Am bank staff is sitting there doing nothing. What the heck of the lazy pigs just sitting there. After waited for 15 minutes unserved , i straight open the door and go out. Lastly is the c2pid celcom broadband. somehow they  blocked my account and prevent me to log in with the error message " CRedit limit reached. Connection port blocked". Few days ago. i just went to the celcom center at SUnway Tunas to unblock my account. Somehow, after 1 day this issue is happening again. So i went to the celcom center which i though is still there in Pulau Tikus (bside EON bank) . Seem like they have moved to somewhere else without putting any notice. Luckily managed to find the newly celcom center which is located in KWSP building beside CITI BANK at town area. WHen i questioned them the reason for blocking my account , they find out that the person who have registered my account has enable the service that implement charges as i go broadband. The acc has shoot up to RM800++ . MY gosh, what i subscribe is unlimited broadband and which tom and harry enabling the watever xxx service option which charge as i go online . (By the way. i dunno what is the service name …so i give xxxx name) . So the solution is revert back to the service package unlimited broadband and canceled the rm800++ .

THe moral of the story above, The customer service being provided is getting for WORST to THE MOST MOST WORST (ya, is getting so bad till no English word  or proper grammer in the dictionary can describe). We are paying for the unsatisfied service. 

         What will you do when you feel very angry? Will you scream, smash any near by objects beside you or even shout at the person around you to spread your anger? Exactly how many of us can control our anger ? I admit i used to be victim to my anger feeling.  When i`m angry, the blood will rush like the lightning in the storm to my head. I feel as if i must let out the angry feeling that is steaming real hot inside me. Indeed one person can do many scary and unexpected things when he/she is angry. But we must control  it to avoid the damage it will cause to the person we love or ourself. I always feel regret of the things i have said or done when the angry feeling is subside.
     Today i really manage to control the anger feeling i have. Somebody make me damn real angry — > the angriness score is 80 % out of 100% K _ K .
I mange to calm down myself by walking around and take a long breath. Hope in future i can control more of the negative feeling i have. As hard as it can be, i will try my very best to control the c2pid monster that i will become when i`m angry………………

(V_V)

    Many ppl seem to give the feedback that my blog give the impression that i was feeling depressed while writing them previously. So i guess this will be the first blog i`m going to write while feeling just right , on top of the sky. Tonight i went to a live band singing , those 2 singers were not that bad.  Wish can stay there longer a bit . BUt i`m afraid that the longer i stay there i will feel like singing myself. hhahah. Today everything goes very smoothly. Got to eat my favorite "thong sui " and drink bit of beer. The feeling is so good when everything feels so right and looks good. I  really treasure those nice feeling i`m having. If only i can keep them for eternity. But then again, without feeling depress and upset , i won`t treasure this nice feeling or even has this nice feeling. Usually we are greedy and wanted to have those nice feeling stick to us forever but we are not living in fairy land.

Is gonna be another negative blog. But i think is true and happening around in some ppl life. Whatever things that happen there is a limit. FOr some unlucky ppl, when the things go beyond your limit, you could be having some serious problem . Maybe you will have psychology problem and go to tanjung rambutan.
        Lately many unhappy things or unwanted things happen. That is life. Those juicy and spices things pour into my life for experience! SOmehow i thought myself will be sad for at least one week. Surprisingly 2 days already almost recover although not 100%.  Sometimes when you reach the limit, somehow the sadness will stop. It will be just like the water being supply to the toilet tank. After we flush the toilet, it will be empty in the toilet tank. Then the water will go into the tank and stop when reach the limit.

I always hope after flushing the toilet bowl being  the water in the toilet tank will be full as fast it can be.

Along the journey of our life, we may come across strangers, family members, friends, colleagues and so on who need our help. What is the boundaries of this helping thing? Since we are small we are taught that helping one another is a one of the good value to instill. This can be found in the boring c2pid Moral subject as well.
          However, under what circumstances and until what limit you should lend the helping hand. Some ppl may accept the help you offer for granted, take advantage of the help or worse still your help indirectly is sending that person to more troubles. DO you think there is a limit to all the help you offer to others? I still think we should stop helping those stop helping themselves.Helping them is like leading them to the dark hole. Sounds cruel sometimes for not helping them, but the more you help , the more you are damaging that person and yourself. I guess even the angel will agree not to help them.
             Furthermore i`m just a normal ordinary person. I guess when it comes to helping your own family member, is even harder to define the limit of helping them. Is kind of tired too when you always be the one always helping them. ……. Help those you think they deserve your help and you are able to help and stop helping when is already beyond your limit……..